What you think, you become.
What you feel, you think.
The cumulative result of all that you’ve experienced in your life, you feel now.
That is heavily weighted toward those events that were powerful and traumatic and remain unfelt and repressed …. still. (this is why folks end up doing primal therapy; the other stuff doesn’t work)
So, go on thinking that you can change your life by thinking differently…. changing your thoughts, doing affirmations….
But when you fail, know that there is still hope.
Struggling with one’s thoughts is like struggling to get all the chairs in line on the decks of the Titanic.
if one can’t do primal, best one should devote oneself to service of others, a higher cause, along with keeping one’s minds fixed on the Divine, however one conceives that.
beating oneself up for negative thoughts is just taking on the oppressors role, bringing it inside … it keeps one removed from Divinity ….
for Divinity is never judging, not even of oneself, one should notice negative thoughts … they, too, are messages from the Divine….
that doesn’t mean one should act (out) on them. but trying to change them is like trying to answer only the “good” phone calls from God … and that is hardly surrender.
negative actions come back on one.
even meditators say one should not judge oneself for negative thoughts, but should allow them to arise in consciousness, become full, and then burst and dissipate … in the meditative process
what I’m adding is that one can and should … for the ones not so easily gotten rid of … allow them to arise in consciousness and allow oneself to even be beaten up by and to struggle with them (this is Jacob wrestling with the angel, as an example). One simply has to expend all possible energy in not acting them out … not giving them energy by doing something about them … like taking revenge, et cetera….
For the bottom line is one cannot know if a negative thought is or is not an angel in disguise. As I have phrased it, borrowing from Jung, one sees an angel as a devil until one is wholly enough to accept her….
– from “The Teachings of SillyGod” in